Halloween is coming, and we are planning for our annual Halloween Psychic Fair at the Higher Self Bookstore. I did not think I'd still be here, nor did I think I'd need a Halloween costume this year.
At the beginning of this year, I thought I might be spending this summer at the lake. Come spring, I thought I'd move to the lake the end of summer. As I lived and worked through the summer, I would see myself spending the fall in all its glory at the lake. I really don't want to be at the lake this winter, and would like to plan an extended trip to Florida.
The word "limbo" keeps coming to mind, though I wouldn't say I was in the dark - the flickering fluorescents above remind me that I am always in the light! I also would not say I'm between heaven and hell. More like, I'm between this heaven and that heaven!
Yes, I have buyers for the store and, no, I don't know when they will come to take over and it is okay. It is business as usual for me and the store is doing very well and I love this little bit of heaven. However, my very human side wants to make plans! Those around me wish I had definite plans as well.
It has been quite the experience to literally take things day-by-day, week-by-week. I could pack, but what if... I could sell the house, but what then... I could buy a plane ticket, but when... I find it all very, very fascinating. I am living in the moment, in the now.
So, in my now moment, I am getting ready for all that may happen in the next now moment, without over-thinking what may happen in the next now moment. I mean, what a waste of energy that would be. Hey, here's a thought - maybe that is how it is done! Is this what Eckhart Tolle was writing about in The Power of Now?
Today my Dad is at the lake, up from Florida for a few days, so that's where I'm headed when I finish this blog. I'll sit and look at the lake, bask in the new autumn colors, and let my Halloween costume appear to me, in the moment, without over-thinking it. All is well.
