Last Tuesday, I was in a really good mood and getting ready
to go to the Higher Self Bookstore. At
exactly 9:50am, I felt like I was hit by a 2X4, instantly sad, depressed, and
wanted to cry. I don’t normally “feel”
energy in this way, but I knew enough to just sit and be with it. In that moment all I wanted to do was crawl
into the bed, but I started asking myself questions instead. Is it me?
Is it someone else?
My old self would have made it all about me. Why am I sad?
What issue haven’t I looked at and resolved? What’s wrong with me? It was actually a great opportunity to do
some self-exploration, but somehow I knew this particular feeling was not about
me. I finished dressing and went to the
store. I asked others how they were
feeling and found out that many were feeling the same way. Some explained it was the moon, or the
planets, or the moon and the planets.
Some thought the pollen quotient was high. We were all trying to figure it out, put a
label on it, analyze it. It was what it
was.
I did my work, breathing through the emotions, knowing it
was temporary. About 2:30pm it started
to go away. For those more sensitive, it
started days before and lasted days later.
Many of the people I know have learned ways to be with it, using
personal growth and spiritual “tools” to get through, but I wondered about
those people who did not. I know that
when the “news” headlines flashed on AOL that day that I just could not bear to
look at them, much less read them. How
many people did crawl back into bed? How
many popped a pill? How many took it out
on their loved one? How many were just
told to “snap out of it!”
I remember one time when I as having a hard time staying
awake during a personal growth class. I
was an assistant trainer so this was not good.
The trainer sent me off to find the underlying issue and make a
shift! I sat down with pen and paper and
cried while I wrote down reasons which could
be core beliefs, causing me to behave in such an unacceptable way when all I
really wanted to do was make a difference and help people wake up. I had a hard time with it and started making
stuff up which MUST be true – there was no other explanation. Days later, after
the class was over, it hit me – I was just damned exhausted! I had put in hours preparing for the event
and hadn’t had much sleep.
Sometimes it just is what it is. I had beat myself up and guilted myself big
time when all I was was tired. You ever
do that? Create big drama when you could
have just sat in a state of fascination and allowed the truth to reveal itself?
I shall share my favorite “tool” with you. You can use it whenever you find yourself
overwhelmed, negative, confused, sad, judging a situation or others as being
wrong, - just about everything. Step
into a place of fascination. Remember,
as a child, being awed by butterflies, fireworks, ripples, stones that looked
like frogs? Go to that place. That place of no judgment, no names or labels,
just noticing and feeling the “awe.”
Observe from that place – be fascinated!
Like, WOW!
The more you practice fascination, the more it will become a
part of your life. You will experience
more peace and harmony, more compassion and patience, and more truth. You’ll make better decisions, because you are
not coming from a place of wrong or right, good or bad. Maybe this is how we
change the world.
