Deserving vs Earning

This may be a little deep for the Holidays, but I think it's an excellent time to do some soul-searching. If we can find some gunk that tends to block our holiday good cheer, and get rid of it - all the merrier!

Okay, so I'm still looking into this internal/external thing which, for me, tends to take me in circles until I get to the core. So hang in there with me, please.

We often read/hear that in order to manifest we must believe we are deserving. Now, I can justify why I deserve something. Say I want to manifest a raise in pay. Do I believe I deserve a raise in pay? Well, of course! I earned it! Just look at all the great things I've done for this company! Oh my gosh, they probably don't deserve me! So why isn't a raise in my reality?

Using justification for deserving is an ego trap! It does not raise my vibration to the level of the "raise" I want! It can get me started toward a feeling good vibration, but I must be careful not to take it into an anger or victim-hood low vibration. It is best to feel deserving without the need for justification. Deserving - internal, justification - external.

When and how does one separate deserving and earning? Do you deserve or earn respect? Do you earn or deserve a camera? You may deserve to be trusted, but if you have abused that trust with someone, you may need to earn that trust back. Earning is a doing thing, an external thing. Deserving is internal - a feeling thing, a way of being.

So, in order to manifest, there must be the internal and external. Deserving (internal feeling) and earning (the external action) through speaking, doing, writing, taking the steps toward the goal. They can actually feed each other toward creation! I raise my vibration as I take action, and my increased vibration makes action more focused and, dare I say, pleasurable! Which helps me feel better still!

So, now, is naughty or nice an internal or an external? And do we give gifts based on deserving or earning/justification? Oh, this puzzle is too big for one sitting. Puzzles have always been one of my favorite things to do this time of year....but I usually have help!

Your comments are most welcome and appreciated! Oh, and thank you for passing this forward!

Love and Light and Happy Holidays!