Darn That Squirrel!

There is a milk shoot/box off my kitchen where the milkman used to deliver milk.  Yes, it's an old little house, but it has a huge backyard!  I have often looked out this shoot and watched the gray squirrels, black squirrels, rabbits, chipmunks, cardinals, blue jays and other birds, and the occasional racoon and skunk.  Many times there would be six to eight squirrels running and playing while a robin splashed in the bird bath and a chipmunk looked for ways to get into the house.  The male cardinal was a regular and the female cardinal kept to the shadows.  Whenever I saw the cardinal I told myself all is well, Spirit is with me.  My sign for myself, my personal affirmation.

A few weeks ago I noticed a little red squirrel had started coming around.  At first I was delighted.  But then I noticed "Red" chasing the other squirrels (twice its size) out of the yard!  I haven't seen the birds much and spot the rabbit rarely.  "Red" has taken over the yard!

Another phenomenon this summer:  Green pine cones were littering the yard!  Sticky with sap, we'd pick them up before letting JS, my grandson, out in the yard, knowing he'd grab them and then be covered in pine pitch.  We picked up hundreds!  Looking out the milk shoot last week, after cleaning up the yard, I noticed three cones down, all in one area.  As I watched, more fell.  And more fell.  I finally stuck my head out the shoot and looked way up to the top of the tree.  There was "Red" knocking the cones off!  Within minutes there were about forty cones on the ground and I couldn't help but laugh.

The question came to mind, "How and why did I attract this red squirrel into my life?"  As a believer that I create the experiences in my life with my beliefs, I often use this type of question to take note of what I'm up to, what I'm thinking, what is the vibration I am putting out there into the Universe.

Knowing that it often takes a little time for my creation to be made manifest, I took myself back into the past few weeks, months.  Studying the squirrel, it appeared to me that "Red" wanted the yard, now its home, all to itself.  Not too long ago I was, let's say, not comfortable in my own home.  People moved into my little house with me.  People I loved and cared for.  But I was having a hard time coping with the messiness, added chores I had assigned to myself, and mostly the lack of privacy.  I felt I had lost my sanctuary.

So I think "Red" showed up to mirror the vibration/energy I was creating as I figured out how to live in this new way.  But even before "Red" moved in, I had started to shift my thoughts and beliefs into ones that better matched what I preferred.  I found ways to ask for what I wanted in the home, created a space for myself for privacy and sanctuary, and appreciated the company of family and friends in my home.

Now I get to watch what unfolds in my backyard as my new thoughts and beliefs go out into the Universe.  Will "Red" leave, or make nice with the other animals and birds?  I'll keep watching out the milk shoot and keep you posted.  By the way, what's going on in your backyard (Life) that needs a closer look?

Struggle? Suffer?

We will all have struggles but we don't have to suffer.  These words, or similar because I can't remember where I read them recently, really got me thinking.  Do I struggle?  Do I suffer?  The words in and of themselves are not ones that usually come to my mind.  Instead, yes, I face challenges.  Yes, I don't always feel good as I work through those challenges.

Over the years, I have learned a more positive way of thinking and speaking - though I must admit I regress from time to time.  Challenge feels better than struggle, don't you think?  But I can understand how some people feel the need to struggle and suffer during their struggling.  It's what they know.

At the moment you could say I am struggling with these words to say what I want to say.  Wrestling comes to mind.  You could say that I suffered through my bronchitis last month, coughing most nights instead of sleeping.  Funny, I never considered myself suffering.  I felt bad, undeniably, and getting well was my challenge (struggle?).

Suffer - to endure, tolerate - was not always energetically negative.  We have made it so and the dictionary I'm looking at actually confirms this.  Struggle by definition must include great difficulty.  We can make things so hard sometimes, can't we?  Is our reward bigger by degree of difficulty?

Many claim that words have power, that they have higher or lower vibrations and should be used carefully.  I agree to a point.  For me, if you have absolutely no energy one way or another on or about a word, it is neutral and without vibration.  I could be wrong about this, but I know I can use the words struggle and suffer without fear of consequence.  Someone who does have a negative belief on these words will most likely attract more suffering and more struggles if this is their focus.

How did I get to this place?  Well, of course, my trainings and studies of personal and spiritual growth.  But late, I think it's because I have been practicing (practicing, as in I'm not perfect at it yet) surrender.  Not giving up, but surrendering to what is, doing what needs to be done, and knowing the answers will come and the outcomes will be for my highest good.  There is no suffering in surrender, at least in my experience.

So, there it is.  Yes, there will always be challenges (life would be pretty boring without some), but suffering is a choice.  My musings.  Tell me what you "muse" about this subject!  I'd love to hear from you.

2012 - I'm Not Redy!

Yep, that is my thought as we enter this highly proclaimed, prophesied, talked-about, mysterious year. 2012, with December 20th being the last day on the Mayan calendar (as well as other ancient timetables). What does it mean? What do we do?

Lucky for me (luck?), I just happen to be the owner of the Higher Self Bookstore where there are not only many books on the subject of 12/20/12, but lots of conversation as well. And, I have had the privilege of listening to the authors and speakers who have done the research, not to mention the channelers and psychics, those renown and those lesser so.

Several times over the past year I have been asked what I think is going to happen, and I must admit that my response changed as I received new information (new to me:). What I believe boils down to this: Huge changes are already happening. The Earth will do what the Earth needs to do. The planets will line up as they will line up. We have the power to direct the outcomes.

I am particularly inspired by the science (you will not learn these things by watching the news). Science has proven that our energies have a definitive affect on the Earth and the outcomes of the changes we are facing.

So, my intentions in preparing for 2012 were simply to: 1) get fit and 2) raise my vibration. Doing just these two things will make it easier for me (my body, my spirit) to move through whatever does happen. And what I do for me I do for you. Good intentions, yes, but my progress wasn't what I'd aimed for.

I know they sound like typical New Year resolutions - lose weight, meditate more. But my heart and soul know this is a bigger game, and when one chooses to play a bigger game, the challenges get bigger as well. Just because I'm saying "I'm not ready" does not mean I've given up.

Progress has been made, for sure. I am more in the moment, I am listening to a voice I never paid much attention to in the past, I take action when the voice speaks, I do what's in front of me to do, there is far less pain in my body. I look for the miracles everyday with excitement, and I love.

I just love everyone. You don't know that I am loving you? Well, I am! Fear has a hard time stepping in when I focus on just Being Love. Can you imagine if everyone picked Being Love to be their focus, everyday? It's our "heart vibrations" that will determine if this is the time of saving grace, or apocalypse.

For many of us, this is going to be quite a roller coaster ride - one of terror or one of excitement. You get to choose. I say, "Bring It On!” with a smile and a wink. Happy New Year! And I do mean "Happy" - Be Happy, Be Love!