New Year Happy?

Happy New Year!  I’m sure you are expecting lots of positive clichés, so here they are:  It’s a time of new beginnings!  Out with the old, in with the new!  Make those resolutions and stick to ‘em!  The past is past, it’s a new day, a new year!  Create a ‘Dream Board’ for 2014!  What do you want to manifest this year?!

Okay, now that that’s done, I’m going to share a little of my reality.  The thought of adding anything new to my plate is simply exhausting.  What I really want for 2014 for myself is some happy endings.  It’s been a year of extremes.  Some very, very dark as well as some very, very bright and joyful.

The more I ponder “new beginnings”, the more the “unfinished business” comes to the forefront of my mind.  I’m finding it impossible to step into the delight of creating something new in my reality.  This is quite puzzling, but I’m starting to get a glimmer into how I can make this work for me.  I want the delight!

What I can do, and will do, is take a fresh, new look at what is in my reality right now.  Just maybe, I can “begin” again, create something “new” out of what can become old.  I can create my own happy endings and make room for some new possibilities.

I’m remembering that I am at choice in my labeling and how I believe the story will play out.  I decide what is old and what’s new.  I decide what is ‘an ending’ and what is a beginning.  I decide what is dark and what is light.

I’m deciding to have a marvelous, prosperous, joyful, peace-filled 2014.  What are you deciding?

Ah, I feel better.  I hope you do, too!  Thank you for letting me share, for letting me be real with you.  May all you desire manifest at great speed in the New Year, 2014.

Resolve To Relax

Happy New Year!  Everyone is saying it, repeating it, writing it. It means I wish you to be happy this year, the year of 2013.  I, too, wish you happiness this year and every year.  I hope you will resolve to BE happy!  Make it your resolution!  It is a choice, no matter how I wish and hope, you get to choose...as do I.

The last few days have been rather calm around my house.  My daughter moved to her own place, all demands of December are done and over.  I haven't had to be someplace or cook something or put out any fires.  It's unnerving really.  I keep waiting for something to come slap me up-side the head, out of nowhere - it's been that kind of year.

I've been "resting" after the holidays, or trying to.  What I feel is more like "restless."  Just because I'm at rest doesn't mean my mind shut off feeding me all the things I "should" be doing.  I had been holding an intention for peace in my house.  Calm is not the same as peace.  I sit in the calm, but my body is amped up for fight or flight!  What next?!  What will go wrong?!  I can't seem to get to the "all is well and all is well and manner of things shall be well."  I want to relax!  That's it!  At least now I know what it is I want.  Aha!

We all want transformation because it feels so good to have those "aha" moments.  With the "aha" we get to smile, experience gratitude and peace.  I like it, too, so I pondered my feelings of restlessness searching for my "issue."  If I have an issue I can process it and get myself an "aha!"  I have been known to make up an issue just to have transformation.  Now there's an issue to process right there.

This is how we normally experience transformation:  We are at peace, going through our days in joy...for awhile.  We start to feel a little restless - let's call it what it is:  We get bored.  So we go out and create/draw to us a little drama!  Usually something we've gone through before because we already know how to handle it.  We do handle it, survive it, and feel good about that.  Now we are at peace again, going through out days in joy.  This is how we experience "life" - when we are not fully conscious.  Like a spinning wheel.

On a more conscious level we do look deep for the issue, the belief that has this feeling or drama re-occurring. If we can find it and let it go, at least that one won't show up again.  Real transformation takes focus and work.  We have to be awake for it.

But when we are asleep, we spin the wheel.  I don't know about you but I'd like to get off this wheel.  I want to feel okay with experiencing peace, to relax - in the calm or in the chaos.  Breathe with me, ah............and know that we do not have to "survive a whack up-side the head" just to have something to do.  We can relax...it's okay.